Tuesday, August 15, 2006

I am just stopping for a bit.

I am getting myself all worked up and I just need to stop. So I am. Nothing says I have to start homeschooling today. Or tomorrow. Or the next day. I need to listen to my heart. And my gut. And it is telling me to stop. To rearrange. To take a moment. To clear my head.

These last couple of weeks have been tremendously hard for my family. We are watching a friend suffer and mourn her life partner. My husband and I are having conversations we didn't want to have but know that we need to. My kids are wondering about us. Will their parents not be here one day? Could we be removed from their lives in an instant? While this is all part of life and I know we will get through it I also feel we must let the process work. We must feel the feelings, have the talks and pay attention to the details. School can wait. We are living life right now. A hard part of life but a part that is teaching us a lot.

So......we continue to cook. We continue to read. We continue to play games. With that we are learning. But all the other stuff is on hold. I checked out "The Well-Trained Mind" from the library today. I am eating it up. I am searching for some Charlotte Mason books to read.

While visiting Classic Adventures I stumbled upon this and found my mission statement: What do I want them to take from this year? It is taped to my refrigerator door and I read it every morning. When I feel overwhelmed, I read it. When I get down in the dumps, I read it. When someone questions why I have not started offically homeschooling, I read it.

Sometimes I just have to get off the bus for a bit. I have to remember that.



Polka Dotted Pickles said...

Wow! You have become a homeschooler, haven't you? Just think of the wonderful things you ARE teaching your kids right now, like the fact that people and dealing with hardships together is more important that doing worksheets and math problems! These are great life lessons! One day soon, you will wake up and feel "ready" to start your little schoolhouse, but until then, relax. School can certainly wait.

(((HUGS))) for you...

RANDI said...

Ooops! That comment was from me, Randi! The Polka Dotted Pickle is my daughter and I was signed in on her account.

beck said...

i agree. only you know when it's right and if your gut is telling you it's not now... then go with it. if you rush it, you'll never feel okay about it. i like the mission statement too. helps keep things in focus. someone put some things on my refrigerator and i read those everyday. helps me get thru the rough spots.

lindiepindie said...

This sounds like such a wise choice you're making for your family. It's a tough time you are going through - and it is so special that your family can deal with it together, instead of separated for a large part of the day if the kiddos were off at school. God bless.